Another Term Break
Sun Dec 16th, 2001 03:16:22 AM EST
The time between school terms should be more fun than other times,
because there isn't any school work to do. It's too bad that that
isn't the way it works out.
The problem is that the friends I do have are at school, and everyone
goes home for the breaks. When I was an undergrad, this was because
we had to leave: the dorms closed. Now that I'm a grad student, it's
because everyone wants to leave. I'm even going away myself for a
week, starting this Thursday.
Loneliness is really starting to get to me now. It was barely
tolerable before, when there were people around, but now that campus
is deserted, it's even worse. What is wrong with me that I can't make
friends like other people seem to do? I'm so tired of being alone.
It's not like I don't try. I go to coffee shops and drink coffee and
hang out. I go to bars and drink beer and hang out. I go to club
meetings and fencing practices and everything else. And I never, ever
actually meet anyone.
I am reminded of what a female classmate told me back in high school.
She said that I am ``unapproachable.'' Well, it's not intentional.
What the hell can one do to become ``approachable''?
While k5 was down, I managed to find myself a Ph.D. advisor. I will
be working with Mendel
Rosenblum, one of the founders of VMware. His area of research is,
predictably, virtual machines. He just returned full-time to Stanford
after three years at VMware, so he has few projects currently under
way. This means that I'll get to help initiate new projects, which
should be nice. Not that I object to helping out with ongoing
projects, but it's nice to start something new, too.
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